Monday, February 22, 2010

- Sweeter than Heaven and hotter than Hell. :

There's a drumming noise inside my head that starts when you're around.
I swear that you could hear it, it makes such an almighty sound.
Louder than sirens. Louder than bells.
Sweeter than Heaven and hotter than Hell.

Here in Lisbon, realized // This whole world so strange and divine .
4:07 PM

Monday, February 15, 2010

- 君がいるから - Kimi wa iru gara, Because you're Here :

I totally love this song, I realised I haven't been blogging in quite a bit, I guess I had nothing to say and I was going through a lot. For those of you who don't know this song, It's from the game Final Fantasy 13 a game which I bought initially bought my ps3 for. And I am proud to say I haven't regretted it one bit. You all should check this song out man~

I have intentionally wrote the jap translation and the meaning out as the title of this post so that people can all understand. But of course it has to be related to what I'm about to post today of course. Well it's been a great chinese new year I must say and I'm real grateful that I have lived another year and able to see all my beloved relatives once again. I guess I'll be visiting the clique's various houses starting with Elvin first. Even though I may not seem like a Christian by how I behave, but deep within my heart there is God inside no doubt, and I am very grateful to him for letting me know all of you wonderful people who played a role in my life, undoubtedly without anyone of you guys, my life will definitely be different. Of course thanks for always being there for me, especially this difficult times even though I try to hide my feelings, hence the song kimi wa iru gara, which means Because you're here.

Well in my opinion this year's chinese new year have been undoubtedly one of the best I have experienced yet, but there's this one thing that just keep me from proclaiming this as the best, that is my dad and exams, but I shan't talk about my horrible dad, instead I shall talk about my exams. I haven't studied a single shit and the worst part is, I'm falling sick, it's weird but I can definitely feel it coming.

Anyways I shall sign off addressing some issues, first of all I hope your mum gets well soon Charissa. And to Si hui! Don't think too much I'll definitely and always be there for you be it as a friend or however more. And last of all, this is the video of the song I'm been talking about, hope you enjoy it!



Here in Lisbon, realized // This whole world so strange and divine .
9:18 PM

Sunday, February 7, 2010

- Utter Disgust and Disappointment. :

You have totally disgust and disappoint me, I can't fucking believe you of all people will do that, someone I respect my entire life would do something like that. How the fuck can you do this. I fucking hate you, in the past if someone were to ask me whether I have hated anyone of not the answer will be a no. But now? It'll be you. As my fingers rush to convey my thoughts on the computer screen at this very instant I still can't fucking digest the fact that you are so filthy. And to make it better? You're the person I respect most in the world, the one person who taught me almost everything I know.

And to think I even want to model myself after you, I take it back the sight of you now disgust me, I respect what you have done for me in the past but now you are nothing more than a stranger no longer a father to me. Fuck you is what I would say if I'm supposed to confront you about your filthy misdeeds. And it only makes it better, how ungrateful you are for what she has done for you. Are you even a fucking human being? You fucking beast I hate you, nothing can summarise the hatred that I feel for you. Even though we live in the same house, I have nothing more to say to you, neither do I want to be associated with you anymore.

From this day on, you are nobody to me, and don't EVER expect me to forgive you, cause I won't, so fuck out of my life, I hate you.

Here in Lisbon, realized // This whole world so strange and divine .
1:17 AM

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

- Awoken from this Eternal Dream :

Well today, I decided to blog as those thoughts filled my very mind. My 6 months perfect dream is about to end, I can't imagine myself not being in TB 25 in 3 months time, I totally can't. This is so unlike me, being so emotional and all but I really love this class and the people in it.

So far these 6 months with you guys have been nothing but great and I wouldn't mind winding the clock back just to give it another go. This once again proves that I made the right choice 6 months ago to transfer here from Electrical Engineering, no offence guys(Marcus and all) you guys are great as well. I have been asked that if I had a choice from the start, knowing I won't like Electrical Engineering, would I pick Business Studies straight, well here's my answer I won't. Cause if I didn't make the blunder I wouldn't meet all of you guys, So what's another 6 months? It's a price I have to and wouldn't mind paying for, I have to thank God for that then haha.

As my mind is trying to convert my thoughts into words, those little memories of 2009 quickly flashes by in my mind like a silver screen. with Pb12 and Tb25. Eating and fooling around with marcus, wei bin and gary and eating ban mian with Sze li they all. It totally leaves me with nothing but joy in my mind. I would truly miss all of you from TB 25, Sze Li's laughter, Jason's bimbotic-ness, Zack's appetite for ban mian, and I would like to thank JJ Clifford and Lik Zhing especially which are the first friends I have in Bs. I would never forget the day I met JJ and clifford haha. But I shall leave it to another time of course:)

Although I will see most of you in Styleogy weekly, but a part of me refuses to accept the fact that Tb25 will be no more. You guys gave me that feeling that only Kindness6 and E1/2 have given me and that I am truly grateful.

Another memorable thing that has happened was my time in Burberry, Dalton, Wil and all. Thanks everyone, I have truly learnt a lot thanks to you all. And special thanks to Zana! for keeping me company during those boring shifts haha and congrats to the fact that you're getting married to your fiance, hopefully this time you will find your fairytale.

Last but not least the astons family, Ricky, Katrina, Obie, Ah yip, Ah boon, Magen, De wei, Kathi, for making my working experience in Astons sixth avenue a very pleasant one. that I can never thank you enough. You all have taught me a lot and totall changed my attitude in many aspects. Thanks once again to all of you and to God for giving me those precious moments with you guys.

Thanks to Jo-wee especially for teaching me the one thing I value mostin my life guitar! And thanks for your never-ending patience that you have repeatedly shown during class. If it wasn't for you my life will still be that darn dull. and because of you I got to take photos with Paul Gilbert, Zakk Wylde, Marty Friedman etc. for that I am truly indebted to you. thanks Jho, Elvin, Zy, Glenn, Foong, Junjun, Siying, Xuanyii and Roxanne for always being there for me no matter what. You guys are the best friends I can ever ask for. And lastly to my family especially Brandon for the moral support you have shown me throughout 2009

Well that's it! Sounds like a very emotional post. Well it is, it consists of everything in my mind that have been raring to be released and finally it got what it wished. More like a farewell message huh, hahah but please bear in mind that whatever I have said in this post came straight from the heart. And thanks Charissa and Erica for the cookies today totally appreciate it :) God thanks for all those memories, and although today is a real rude awakening for me but nevertheless I appreciate what you have already given me.

Here in Lisbon, realized // This whole world so strange and divine .
3:07 AM